i want to eat seaweed! !

come back soon?
i miss you

posted by berrrr :) @ 9:33 PM 2 comments

indifferent

don't bother anymore
since you choose to go
don't come back and look for me.
i gave you my all.
but since you can walk away in such a fashion
then i guess i no longer can find the capacity to wait for you

looks like we really are 2 parallel lines.
that may never ever intersect again.

i'm so tired from this whole episode
it has spanned for way too long.
where were you when i needed you most?
you put me through this shit for 4 mths, and you just happily lead your life with those shallow people.
i hope you won't regret.
study well, if you even give a damn.
goodbye to you.

thank you burytheyard
you've served me well
but i am shifting
because some people do not deserve to know anything about my life anymore.

posted by berrrr :) @ 7:42 AM 0 comments

약속?
하지마.
사랑을몰라 :(

생활아주안좋은:'(
왜? 왜? 왜?!
심장진짜아픈..

너는알십시요?
아니요.
i guess you really don't know.
because if you did, you wouldn't put me through it.

posted by berrrr :) @ 11:32 PM 1 comments

i was right, santa is a fucking liar.
and only stupid kids believe in him.

woke up really early on the eve to complete making the present
and wrapping loserchua and slackerng's present
drove to dairy farm to slack
went to bugis for last min shopping (them!)
picked nettietheshorty up from work
went mustafa but too bad loserchua cldnt get the watch
drove to bkt timah market to buy a feast home
we had hokkien mee, chicken wings, oyster omelette, satay, chwee kuay, carrot cake.
had our christmas dinner (which is very unchristmas-sy) at the balcony at dairy farm.
1000 pictures taken with the mini christmas tree by the ledge
nettieq singing 12 days of christmas
short search of presents under the xmas tree
present opening time
yup! and my celebration ended there because i sent nettieq to bedok for her party (?) and i was sup to go back to dairy farm
but i missed the stupid exit i got lost and i felt damn sick and tired of life i drove on for ages (!!!) and i winded up at thomson.
stopped by for over an hour to take a breather.
went home for a sad christmas day.

i hateeeeeee how my life feels pathetic argh
i dont really want school to start, but yet i want it to start.
im not making sense
its just like how i want to be alone, but i hate to be lonely
i hate all these selection of modules and planning of timetable :(
hope i can take more mods with jw in the upcoming sem again.
results coming out in 2 days time i guess and i have really bad feeling about it
anyway, what can go wrong in my life would always always go wrong.
:(
i miss ij alot. i miss being with the clique everyday
i miss hanging out and doing stupid things with them.
i miss bullying margaret, i miss ahma's funny noises, i miss hwain's enthusiasm in everything, i miss mavis the giraffe in labour, i miss juibian and his funny duck voice, i miss yinhao and trg with him, i miss sean's "is my hair messy anot?"
i miss singing and shooting our "hei se mao yi" mtv in the library
i miss pe lessons with mslee (haha)
i miss running to the canteen to buy food, and then strolling to the next lesson in a bid to waste time, but pretending to show a sense of urgency as we approach the classroom door so we wldnt get reprimanded as badly
i miss walking around the ij campus
i miss mdm chan's "how many hours did you study this weekend?" and then everyone would say stuff like 14 hours, 16 hours (dont know true anot!!) but i'd always have to make up my hours if not i'd get scolded for not meeting the quota.
i miss studying in empty classrooms
i miss all the house activities esp with hwain around man!
i miss margaret being my eyes when i'm blind
i miss doing maths mock exams because they were damn easy and they made me feel good about life haha
i miss running out of the school with the stupid girly girls and the security guard came running after us for quite a distance, but we escaped
i miss running out of school (again) but only me and yh made it, margs bones joseph sean got caught by khunchua hahaha

one thing i really thank god for now would be for people like aihui and yanlin
whom i've known for about six years but yet we're still close
aihui for being close to my cousins (and excluding me in the process huh bitch) and for being so full of shit
yanlin for always, always just talking all the nonsense you cld possibly think of. you're prob the only person i know who hasnt changed over all these years. thank you mummie.

posted by berrrr :) @ 11:06 PM 0 comments

i'm drowning

i feel like typing something but i do not know what to type
i think i no longer know how to express myself, or my current situation
its so complicated i can never put it to words.

i hate how even when i'm with my friends having fun, i'm never truly happy.
i've lost that happy feeling since a really long long time ago, and i wonder when i can ever feel that again.
been damn cynical twds certain people as well. i dont think i can trust them. anyway,i dont think i can trust people at all. not after being betrayed countless times.. maybe its just me placing my trust into wrong people all the time. people fail all the time and i always have to learn about it the hardest way.

in a few more days time,
my life wld take a change again.
i want to embrace 2008.

oh anyway went to pick nettieq up today and we drove to town and we decided to park at some cine carpark but khunchua asked us to go OFS! so we drove and drove 1million rounds before we found the carpark at OFS but it was congested! so we drove and drove again and made our way to the carpark behind borders! what a long ride we had!
and we waited and waited and waited and waited and waited for khunchua&staceymerkins to finally make their grand appearance before we ploped our comfy asses at partyworld. reliving the good old ktv days!
afterwhich, muffinhead left to meet her friend, and i drove(again!) to dairy farm to slack. guess i'll be heading over to dairy farm again tmrw for xmas celebration and i've prepared how to sing "12 days of christmas" already! tht is the pre-requisite for receiving gifts! failure to sing the song wld result in going home empty handed!
we wld just be having a small little party to ourselves.
so in case i never make it home in time...
here's wishing you all a merry christmas. hang your christmas stockings at your windows because santa might drop you some candy sticks and gifts. but whatever man i think santa hates me because he wouldn't give me what i want for christmas. fucker.

posted by berrrr :) @ 10:09 AM 0 comments

a first time for everything

yesterday was fun!
i went Play w khunnie&staceymerkins!
and aihui!
and rebecca tan is so hot! haha.
i'm about the lousiest person in zhong ji mi ma...but anw i lost and i had to do a stupid dare. !@!&^%!@!!*!!@
we went for bakuteh after that!
and i stayed over at dairy farm......
and woke up only at 2+pm but i lazed in bed, reading tossing and turning until 5+
before going shopping with khunnie again
too bad we only made it to lido and wisma and taka (barely!)
and we went to mamamustafa! yay i smell of indians now
but i bought my first pair of exp seiko watch because xb thinks my current watch is too childish!!
yay but tmrw we're going out again so that i can check fred perry girl out!

KJERHY(WY#kdjflkwj283usJSKDFj03
JIO#ju9y3rtkljlK3y0HK
dlhY#(@0990ujjKLENLHgg

it seriously has no meaning
so
dont bother trying to decode it
nonsense ramblings
RAH

posted by berrrr :) @ 10:47 AM 0 comments

went to tan with bter this morning/afternoon.
tanning makes me think alot.
thank you for your time brenda...
it's been nice knowing you, my 9 years friend.
it's amazing how much nonsense you can still talk to me even though we seldom meet up.

drove ard for ages aft sending brenda back home.
it was raining though.
i dont think i like driving in the rain, it feels dangerous

came home. stoned.
left to met nettieq's family for dinner because luther was treating, first pay!
ate at Ma Maison. been long since i gathered with them for a hearty meal.
still as heartwarming. so thank you mama quek for the invite! &nettieq no thanks for poking me a million times in the car. but i wish we cld just......sing songs together always :(

you know the thing i really feel like doing now
is to drive to ecp so that i can sit at the breakwaters
and stone maybe.
because it's getting so tiring to live.

posted by berrrr :) @ 6:38 AM 0 comments

i'd die for you.

no
dont
dont
please
dont
i cant.
dont.
please.
why me?
why us?
why?
why?
no
please?
please.

posted by berrrr :) @ 12:29 AM 0 comments

tell me.
:(

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senhrklnsbekjrbesrj
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nothing makes sense anyway

posted by berrrr :) @ 5:48 PM 0 comments

my days are numbered

i dont know what to say or do.
too scared to do anything.

"can you dont go?"

yes i can stay.
only if.

posted by berrrr :) @ 7:49 AM 0 comments

so you sailed away, into a grey sky morning

posted by berrrr :) @ 7:45 AM 0 comments